| Another year...
Another birthday...
I'm moving out & i know it'll be for the better. Even if i CAN'T move out of Wichita yet.. being on my own will be better =) So ya'll better come visit me!!
I'll put pictures up sometime when i have the chance
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| For
some unknown reason, people always want what they can't have. Weather
it be the person you want is currently in a relationship, out of your
league, or just straight up doesn't want you. Possibly it's one of
those people that just try to see if they can get with you (douches).
But it doesn't stop you, you'll still try... I don't exactly understand
why, but no one really does, huh? Could it be the mystery behind it? Or
maybe it's the chase, the rush you get during it, who knows!
But what happens when you get exactly what you want? Do you still want
it? Or is the mystery & excitement of that person instantly gone?
Is it enough? It'll never be enough, people always want more.
Unattainable or not, it's all for the chase. Afterall, that's what
keeps everyone going back.
If you work that hard to achieve your goal, atleast make it worth while. Hold onto it with both hands & don't give up. That's when you know they honestly care about you. That's when you know it was worth all of your time & effort. |
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| So if you all know my cousin Chris & his ex Angela, you'd know how
much drama they've caused in the last few years. Angela is
currently mad at my entire family & wont let me see my little
cousin (who i used to be with everyday last year). Chris has a warrent
out for him & we found out he has cancer. He can't go to a hospital
because they look up his name & the warrent pops up. Yea... so he's
probably going back to jail & has cancer. Great!
In the last month alot of people have told me how much i've grown up. I
think it's because i'm just tired of being here. Not just wichita, but
highschool. I've been working my butt off right now. School starts in
two weeks. I'm taking an outside class. Working three jobs. And
attempting to keep my friends. I work everyweekend now too so that
kinda sucks. So if you want to talk, your best bet is to call me at 2am
if i'm not passed out.
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| So, times running out.
I need a date for a friends wedding that's coming up.
All of the people i know will be on the alter & i'd like to sit by someone i know.
So if your free..& don't mind going with me (as friends or more//girls or guys), that'd be lovely.
I'm not picky unless i absolutely hate you, & you'd know it..
But just call me if you can go with me.
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| I am so stressed out right now,
I know I have pleanty of time to think about it.
But still, it's getting worse with my parents.
I KNOW they're too dumb to find this & they'll find my notebooks if I even attempted to write in them..
So good ol' faithful xanga's gonna be my writing therapy =)
Where am i going to school?
Can I even afford to go to school?
Where am I gonna move?
Is Thuy still gonna move in with me?
What about her Grandma?
Can I afford to live on my own?
Am I even staying in Wichita?
What's left for me here?
What's there to DO here?
Should i move to Texas?
Or is that too much of a hassle?
I have nooooo effing idea what to do. I'm only 17, yea I know I'm gonna make mistakes.
But this... this is big time mistakes..
I know I should be super happy because Thuy's gonna be home tomorrow..
But I still have all this stuff floating in my back of my head.
I need someone to just grow up & realize this is not a game, it's life.
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